cursed of sleepless nights 🌌

Siuuuuuuu le me tell you about little more about my self
Muje Kabhi kabhi yeh realise hota hai ki
main na ek accha beta ban paaya,
na ek accha dost
na ek accha student
Na kisi ka fav bn paya
Na ek accha  (*****) 
aur na hi woh insaan
jo logon ko mujh se umeed thi.
Har role mein thoda kam reh gaya,
har jagah almost enough raha.
Koshish poori ki,
par result hamesha aadha sa nikla.
Jaise zindagi ke har exam mein
main present toh tha,
par pass kabhi nahi ho paaya.
Zindagi mein dost toh bahut mile,
par samajhne wale shayad kam hi rahe.
Agar main apne khaas doston ki baat karun,
toh unke naam bas itne se hain
Ata, Rihan, Oroboros.
Main unke liye genuine hoon,
shayad main zyada bol nahi pata,
apni feelings words mein nahi utaar paata,
magar sach yeh hai ke
unke liye main kuch bhi kar sakta hoon.
Log meri niyat dekhte nahi,
sirf meri kamiyaan gin lete hain.
Aur main…
khud se roz yeh sawaal poochta hoon
ke kya main kabhi
enough bhi ban paunga?
Kash mere parents muje hug krke kahe everything is ok ya fir koi aur kahe 
Mai aap logo se apni baatein share kr rha hu kyuki shyd mai apno se nhi kr paa rha hu what i feel in inside everyday muje aksar 4 baje neend aati hai mai thak chuka hu in bina neend ki  raton se bs thoda sukoon chaiye muje ab...in the end mai sochta ki shyd meri jyada prblm nhi jitte kisi dusre ki ho to mai dekhta hu kisi ko to mai ruk jata kyuki muje pata hai kaisa lgta hai jb koi sunne wala na ho dusro ko sunne lgta hu shyd meri wjh se unka mnn hlka ho jaye to mera bhi ho jayega...
 

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